So damn EOWH 6:02 AM

I need a new nose because I have a lousy side profile.

Oh and I still have to finish the PR report which is OVERDUE! Leeyi I hate you. I'm just topsy turvy this semester and doing everything at the last minute. This was supposed to be a very "chill" sem but its turned out to be the busiest yet!

And I'm here blogging. Need to let off some steam I guess. To make things worse (or better) my internship starts tomorrow, at Sony. More on that later.

For now, PR report here I come!

Pray for me la = =

A Career 7:27 AM

I so often hear people complain about their jobs. "The boss sucks!" "That girl's fugly!" "Everything's just so sh** around here!" Sound familiar? There's bitchiness and politics in every office. The scariest part is - I just might  become one of them, when I join the rat race.

So I'm writing this now, before and in case I ever forget. I want to do something I love. Not something that brings me a lot of money, a nice house, or a fancy car. Not a job that I will dread going to every morning. Not a job that I will complain about on weekends or to my friends. I don't ever want to live for the weekends. I don't want to post "Yay Friday" every week on my Facebook because that would only mean I'm not enjoying my work.

I remember how Dad used to come home with a sour face and something bad to say about his employer. We tell him he sighs too much, that he should have a change of mindset and attitude. But the truth is, we'll never understand his situation.

I don't want history to repeat itself. I want to always have my optimism. They'll never crush my spirit. You may be the one who pays me, but you will never own my soul. Maybe I'm idealistic... oh wait, I am! There's no such thing as the 'perfect' job after all. But whatever happens, I never want to be the person who's first word every morning is a complaint.

Here's to finding jobs we can genuinely love, and not just for the paycheck. Let's keep our heads up, no matter what.

Hokkien Iron Man wor 2:51 AM

I just discovered that one of our FTV lecturers has a side job as a comedy actor. Please enjoy this Hokkien version of Iron Man.

Me likey ;)

Dear John, 2:29 AM

Why do you have a compulsive need to be better than others? Why do you constantly have to feel like you are academically, intellectually and noticeably superior to the next person?

Is it so wrong if someone upstaged you? Is it so bad if she exceeded you by two marks? Is it so bad that you lost out by four? Are you so petty? Are you so shallow? Is your world so, so small?

Didn't I work hard enough? What did I do wrong? What did she do right? Why did she do better even though I KNOW I spent more time on it than she did? Is the world so unfair?

Why am I judging her? Why am I even comparing myself? Why SHOULD I compare myself? Why is my world so small?

Is your work everything to you? Does nothing else matter? Why can't you live life for today, appreciate the things you have and strive to achieve that which you do not have? Why do you have to be perfect all the time?

I want to find the thing that completes me. I want to be whole. I don't want to have to feel bad for not doing as well as the next person.

Perhaps someday I'll grow out of this. Perhaps someday I'll be mature enough to see the error of my ways. Perhaps one day I won't need my work and my career to feel good about myself. Perhaps one day I will be truly, wholesomely happy, and maybe then I will have found the thing that completes me.

I look forward to that day :-)

I Want to be Thin... 1:56 AM

... because everything looks better when your fat isn't hanging out the side of your jeans! And because I want to wear form-fitting clothes and not have to hold my breath or stand hunched. Sad thing is I haven't lost much weight in the past one year despite my exercise regime.

Looks like I'll be haunting the exercise/fitness websites again soon. And darn those people with high metabolisms! My Australian cousin once said there was this thing called the "slim gene". Too bad its not in my gene pool.

Who's got a diet that works?!

FML.

11 Reasons Why I'm Still Single (and will likely remain so for a long time!) 4:34 AM

Everyone (well almost) has been asking me this question of late: "WHY are you still single John???!?!" So I've decided to compile a list of ten reasons to explain this phenomenon. Please read and laugh where appropriate. Reader discretion advised.

1. People think I'm gay (I don't blame them, I DO like to dress well and I hang around girls ALOT, yet am still unattached)
2. I am bossy and arrogant (I don't like being in a relationship where I'm not on top, figuratively speaking)
3. I have a big ego (not tremendously HUGE, but I do like to be right most of the time =p)
4. I can be very sensitive (with my feelings -- I am easily offended and hurt)
5. I like to feel independent (meaning I can't be bothered to call my girlfriend every five minutes to ask about her day)
6. I am a workaholic (this should probably go under "10 Reasons Why John would make a Bad Boyfriend," but what-the-heck)
7. I don't have the balls to walk up to girls in the bar/club/pub and say: "You must be Jamaican, because Jamaican me crazy"
8. I like to be alone (not ALL the time, but I must spend time with myself -- ME-time)
9. I can't stand the hassle of having to constantly think about someone else (I'm high maintenance as it is!) 
10. I hate to look like I'm desperate
11. I generally dislike human beings (they are too unpredictable, unlike my first love Microsoft Word 2007 which has never failed to satisfy me emotionally, and err.. [censored])

Hope this answers your question as to why I'm still single. Nevertheless, I hope to find "the ONE" somewhere in this lifetime and my happily-ever-after. Until then, I'll be making out with myself.

Ciao!